Hello, It's Me

The past month has been, perhaps, the longest month of my life. I’m not going to go into detail as to how things unravelled for me but I want to let you guys know something very important.

Our actions here, in the cyberworld, does matter. Just because you cannot see the person you interact with face to face doesn’t mean that they’re not real and more importantly, it does not give you the license to say and do whatever you want to another person.

A major part of my absence has something to do with this matter. I have no intention of throwing shade because he has caused so much damage already but these are things that has to be said.  I was bullied and made to feel so low that it transcended to how I felt in real life. I felt so down and depressed all the time – always thinking about the words and actions this person has directed towards me. What made everything worse was how this person continued to roam freely as if without fault around the boards while I suffered the consequences of his action. It pained me to be at the hospital every day, not having the strength to do anything at all. And it just worsened the medical condition I already had.

But that’s okay because I did learn a very valuable lesson. The friends we make around the forums and online will stick with you – no matter what. It doesn’t matter if you don’t know how each other’s face looks like, how their voice sounds, what matters is that you can always come back to them and they will welcome you. I did not want to go back to the forums at first because a huge part of it was the reason why I had to go in the first place but everyone who has sent me kind wishes made me really, really reconsider.

And so I’m here.

I’m not fully recovered yet but I’m at a better state than I was before and for me, that’s a win. So I decided to come back and slowly ease into things again. Please do not expect any huge bursts of activity from me since I probably won’t be able to do that yet. (Also, I might have forgotten how to do graphics and resources!)

But for those who have asked and prayed for my well-being, this is for you. This is to let you know that I’m alive and kicking. And this is also a huge thank you for sticking with me through this ordeal even if some do not know me very well. But for those who do, I really can’t thank you enough and know that I will always be here when you need me. <3 Please feel free to send me a note or reach me privately around the forums if you want to talk or simply catch up <3

- Mari